Tuesday, 14 October 2014


Looking at the world though their perspectives made me realize how thankless and selfish we have become, we the so called 'Educated People'. Just a month of internship at an orphanage opened my eyes to the reality we have been denying for no reason.
   There were over fifty children, living in a small house, with not the best location or the view. The faculty had problem providing the children with clean water to drink and good food to eat, but yet, every time we sat with them to have lunch or break fast, they would eat the food as if it was made by the best chef. Where as I, or any one from my circle would make a horrible face or simply say no to that food.
 We, who have the luxury of going to good schools and colleges, have still not develop the respect for academics. We don't study the way we should, and the these children, whose eyes would light up every time they saw us entering from the green gate, would impatiently wait for us in ques in front of their classes. They would hold the pencils with such care, as if they were holding the key to eternal happiness.
 They had never gone to a proper school, the ones who had, dropped out because of financial issue. But still, they showed excellent qualities of an ideal human being, the successful and strong ones. They weren't selfish with the gifts they were given, they would share them with their fellow friends. They played with each other, and played a fair game. They lived together, and bonded better than the families I knew. They weren't genetically related, but yet they laughed and loved each other better than I have ever loved my siblings. They were foster siblings, but yet, the amount of care the reflected in their eyes for each other was phenomenal.
 On Eid-Ul-Fitr, which is one of the most joyous festivals for Muslims, all of the children were given new clothes to wear. And I will never forget the smiles that had dawned on their faces when they wore them, some of them even showed off that they were wearing new clothes. Where as the people I know, complained that the clothes weren't bought from a specific brand, or it wasn't their favorite color.
 When I left my internship, I left feeling so sad but yet so happy. Sad that I wasn't going to spend more time with these amazing children and happy because they taught me one of the most important lessons of my life. When I left, I learned, that no matter how qualified you become or how famous. It doesn't matter if you are billionaire, or broke person. What matters is what sort of person you are from the inside. If you do not have the heart to understand the pain of others, the humanity to sacrifice your happiness and the ability to forgive. Then having a billion in your account is of no good use. No matter how big you get, never forget where you came from. Be thankful to what you have, and learn to share it with the people who live around you. The people, who have given you a place that you can call home. Friends and cousins, who give you company, colleagues with whom you can share you struggles. Most importantly, thank God for blessing you with all, big or small blessings.
                                                                                                -Love Mahal

Wednesday, 1 October 2014

If I close my door, please don't stop knocking.

There are moments in life where you end up on crossroads, the most dreadful turning points of our lives. The point, where every judgment and decision you've ever made, all looks like nothing but a huge mistake. And the worse thing about those times are, that all who claimed to be our friends for life leave us when we need them the most. And the ones who stick around are pushed by us for no apparent reason. These are dark times, that will lead you do things that you never meant to do. We hurt the people around us,  and also end up becoming victims of our own actions.
 I have been on many turning points , I always end up isolating myself, I stop seeing my friends and I quit talking to my family members. I don't have any answers, nor any explanation to this behavior. Makes me wonder if I am mentally alright, or have I lost my mind. People around me say that I have an attitude problem, or their famous line "teenagers like to seek attention this way", and that my fellow relatives is ridiculous.As if the problems we are dealing with aren't enough, someone from our own circle always has this tendency to make our situation far worse. The reason why I wanted to right this down is that we often shut ourselves up ,but that doesn't mean that we don't ever want to be found. Its lonely and its dark, and these times are depressing. and we human, don't have the guts to admit that we need help. We have problems that we can't deal with, some that we are scared and embarrassed to share. So If we shut our doors, and yell to be left alone, don't take our words too seriously. We all need our spaces and time to think, but in these times what we need is a soft gaze and warm embrace to tell us, that this too shall pass. It can be bad grades, relationship problems or more importantly, family conflicts.  Every person alive, no matter how strong they are, want to be reassured, that the most impossible of the situations have a solution. 'So if I close my door, please don't stop knocking' is a thought that lingers in every person's mind who is going through a hard time. And anybody who is reading this, and is struggling with anything, my fellow readers, it will pass. Time never stops, everything good or bad has to eventually pass.

                                                                                                          -Love Mahal